cap·i·tal·ism noun
\ˈka-pə-tə-ˌliz-əm

An economic system characterized by private or corporate ownership of capital goods, by investments that are determined by private decision, and by prices, production, and the distribution of goods that are determined mainly by competition in a free market

cor·po·rat·ism noun \ˈkȯr-p(ə-)rə-ˌti-zəm\
The organization of a society into industrial and professional corporations serving as organs of political representation and exercising control over persons and activities within their jurisdiction


Where do these things overlap in society, what are the trends, is capitalism yielding to corporatism?


How does solipsism, the belief that the self is the only thing to exist, overlap with this?

Part II

so, as part 2, what is next?
I've been thinking about many careers. I am thinking and realizing that the #1 most important aspect of a job is... well theres 3 actually, and they are all important. They would be:

1. The job has to be ethical. No military contractors, not gonna do advertising, etc. Do something that benefits the world, be it through education, the arts, or actual sustainable tech.
2. I must practice my creativity. Writing, designing, building, etc.
3. I would prefer to / am conflicted over whether or not I should do something technical (producing music and writing about science counts.)

For example, a scenario in which I am a freelance writer, music producer, science writer, designer, sustainable technician, researcher, science teacher etc all work out for me.

Also, going back to school is on the table. I would like to improve my technical skills at music or chemistry.

Environmental chem or recording arts are my 2 favs right now, but I've also thought about environmental studies, engineering, journalism, and env. science writing.

The more I chill the more I feel comfortable thinking about this, knowing that my thoughts are not coming from a point of stress or anxiety, just dreaming the future, making a tasty gumbo of possibilities. We will see, but I must do something that is fully awesome.
Love
Zach

theres a lot of me inside you, maybe you're afraid to see.

i am once again at a crossroads... as the grid of time and space would have it. I have come back from Mexico, I am sitting in my parents house... resting. I am taking a month to not do anything. Its really only been 2 weeks and my family is already worried.. uh, guys? I am going to rock the world. But I can't do that by being a killer bee and just buzzing 24/7. time to reflect, time to unwind, time to let the minutia dissolve and feel the bigger picture. Plus I'm going to the GYM and doing weights and getting in shape, plus I am quitting caffeine AND tobacco, which are both positive steps for me. So, even if my granpda asks me what I did today and I say "played video games and went to the gym" its not time just yet to pick up the phone and dial your favorite shrink.
My last year and a half in Mexico pushed me in many ways, some that were directly beneficial and some that were downright stressful and need to be converted into positive experiences with some time to reflect.

I just dont want to jump in there and start doing something my heart isnt in. right now my heart is telling me to chill, man. Lets take a quick review: Zach is 25 years old. Zach has a degree in Environmental Science and Technology. Zach just finished working for a NGO in MExico, that has won many awards, and has designed prototypes and ran a lab. Zach is not particularly, depressed, nihilistic or addicted to drugs. Zach is smart is and motivated. Zach wants 3 weeks to chill. Sorry.