i am once again at a crossroads... as the grid of time and space would have it. I have come back from Mexico, I am sitting in my parents house... resting. I am taking a month to not do anything. Its really only been 2 weeks and my family is already worried.. uh, guys? I am going to rock the world. But I can't do that by being a killer bee and just buzzing 24/7. time to reflect, time to unwind, time to let the minutia dissolve and feel the bigger picture. Plus I'm going to the GYM and doing weights and getting in shape, plus I am quitting caffeine AND tobacco, which are both positive steps for me. So, even if my granpda asks me what I did today and I say "played video games and went to the gym" its not time just yet to pick up the phone and dial your favorite shrink.
My last year and a half in Mexico pushed me in many ways, some that were directly beneficial and some that were downright stressful and need to be converted into positive experiences with some time to reflect.
I just dont want to jump in there and start doing something my heart isnt in. right now my heart is telling me to chill, man. Lets take a quick review: Zach is 25 years old. Zach has a degree in Environmental Science and Technology. Zach just finished working for a NGO in MExico, that has won many awards, and has designed prototypes and ran a lab. Zach is not particularly, depressed, nihilistic or addicted to drugs. Zach is smart is and motivated. Zach wants 3 weeks to chill. Sorry.
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